xox Pleasent Misery xox

…or, as others call it, my blog! I’m ShallowShadows, aka Yohlee and Ki, though you might know me by some other nickname from elsewhere. Here I’ll mainly post about things I’ve done, gotten, watched, read, etc, aka random as heck stuff. And yes, that does include things I write, draw, and/or design. Anywho, enjoy your reads and make sure you don’t go crazy in the process because I already am.

The List of Things to Do... 
(Last updated: 5/3/2008)

1.) Heart Filled Madness Chapter 10/10
2.) Update KTSS (For crying out loud!)
3.) Give DreamerSoul a shiny new layout
4.) Be more active on a bunch of accounts
5.) Update Serene Lair with stuff
6.) Go to bed earlier and sleep more!
7.) Update all fanlistings (Install En.)

50,000 KANJI?!?! O.o; Wow, now that’s scary!

‘tis the estimate of how many characters exist in Japanese.

Thankfully I found out I only need to learn about 2,000 of those, since only 2,000 or so are common. That and I have been told to learn hiragana and katakana first as it’s what the little school kiddies in Japan are taught first, too. And hiragana sounds useful beyond all reasoning since when you forget or don’t know the kanji characters for a word, you can write it in hiragana phonetically. Hiragana, I love you. Okay, that must have just sounded weird… moving on.

1:00am… Wtf am I doing awake? Well, it is April vacation so I guess staying up late is only natural. Ugh, I can’t wait til the summer. I’ll have plenty of free time to learn Japanese without much worry. I’ve plans to hang with friends on Saturday. Huzzah! I want to draw… I miss drawing… *Sulks in her emo corner.* I think… I think I try to do too much all at once. Maybe I should just take things one at a time? Perhaps…

I’m thinking of giving up roleplaying on myspace, despite how many people I enjoy rping with there. But the fact I met Yu-chan through myspace makes me think otherwise. Because y’know I would’ve never met her, right? Or well, maybe through here the D. Gray-man yaoi community *cough cough*, but still… I doubt we would’ve talked as much as we do on msn. ^^;; Rp creates wonders. 

Okay, enough talk from me. I’mma go do something. Probably surf some art websites and read yaoi pr0n. Har, har. I can’t wait for my Lavi and Yu chibi figurines… ;_; They’ll be coming in the mail soon. Joy~♥

I’ve surprisingly never seen the movie Titanic until today… April 7th, 2008. I know, pathetic, right? Well, I must say, it was a beautiful, heart rendering movie. The weirdest thing about buying it today then watching it? The actual ship struck an iceberg on April 14th, 1912 then sank two hours and forty minutes later on April 15th, 1912... Talk about weird timing, eh? About a week or so before the actual anniversary and this was considering how I forgot the date before re-researching to refresh my memory today.

I do recall watching something called “Ghosts of the Abyss” (I think) in sixth grade, a documentary on the actual ship and if I remember right, they showed the ship beneath the water and how it looks so many years later. In all honesty, I never had an interest to see the movie until I saw a D. Gray-man picture parody of sorts while looking through one of my favorite Japanese art websites. Being an angst-lover and someone who enjoys good romance, I went, “Wait, I’ve never seen this, have I?” Then took the plunge.

I was so sad at the end! Great movie, I seriously loved it! Though… I doubt I’ll be able to sleep very well later tonight thanks to it. Lol. It was bad enough I had trouble sleeping before I saw it thanks to fan-made music videos I’d been watching, but now… Ah, oh well. I’ll try to watch a few funny things before heading to bed. ^^;

Really, it would be better if you didn’t ask about the title. Ha, ha, ha.

Anyway, yes, it’s almost 3:00 in the morning, I haven’t slept and I’m working on a fan fiction. How crazy is that? Probably not very as I do it often. *Face palm.* I said I’d try to get Heart Filled Madness finished before the end of the second week of March and I meant it! Though I suppose this is taking it a bit to the extreme, considering how I’m tired and have until the end of the 15th to keep to it…

Edit - 3:33am: Just thought I’d say this before going to bed. I haven’t updated my websites because my wireless router can’t read certain websites’ IP addresses. My site just had to be one of them! The irony. Well, I can update them if I unplug the router, but I’d be stuck using the crappy old computer down on the first floor which hooks directly to the internet. *Sigh.* I’ve already attempted transferring things to that computer via flash drive and CDs, but neither worked. It hates me. I have a few other ideas in mind so we will see… I want a new router! Gah!

*Inserts incoherent grammar and spelling here.* I HAS NEW HOST!!!!! :D S’happy tha I kuld keel sumthin’… >D

Lol. Don’t ask why I just did that. XD Inside joke. Anyway, it’s true! I’ve a new host that is so much better than the last! Due to the downtime though, I haven’t worked on my websites or fanlistings and shall be editing as many as I can. ^^ I just hope I don’t get lazy. That happens too much due to getting caught up in roleplaying on msn. Yu, Allen, Tyki, everyone else… I love you all~ *Bricked.*

Erm, in other news, I finally started the next chapter of Heart Filled Madness which is already over the point of being late as I posted the previous one the 31st of January. I’m sorry! I think I officially have bad luck or something since my website died right when I was about to first work on the chapter back on the fourth of this month. I’m soooo glad I always make backups. 

Oh, snap. My website is dead because my host is dead. Until they decide to get off their lazy butts and get their site back up, I can’t even pay the damn expired bill for my domain -- which is now apparently bought out by a search engine. Thanks a lot. I am madsad.

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Apparently my ears are practically already closed. x.x Seriously, what the heck?! It’s only been five going on six days since I took the earrings out! I couldn’t even mess with them too long without getting nauseous. I tried to pop earrings in by pressing them against the “holes”, but couldn’t get them to go in, felt sick then stopped. I felt my earlobes now and all I feel are bumps where the holes are suppose to be! Gah... mom told me to just let them close up all the way so I am. Oh well. Maybe if I get them done by a doctor and get bigger studs I’ll have better luck... Though I admit, the thought of the pain I will have to go through with getting them done again in the future makes me cringe. Stupid sensitive ears.

Anyway, enough about my ears. I’m probably grossing many of you out to the point in which you’ll never read my blog entries again. X'D Yesterday my mom made her delightful cupcakes! *-* Oh man, they’re so delicious. I’d ask you all to try one, but eh, the majority of you don’t even live in New England (upper eastern part of the United States that consists of the states Massachusetts, New Hampshire, Maine, etc…). Ah, oh well. One day when I’m better at everything I do and get money of my, um “talents” Iwouldn’tcallthemthat, I’ll go to a really popular convention and meet a lot of you! X3 Or I can buy a few of you plane tickets so you can come stay with me for a while! Ahahaha! I would totally not mind housing some buddies for few weeks to a month. Okay, I’m done now.

Okay, so on the 11^th, I ended up having what’s called an “embedded ear”. T_T Meaning my earring was in too tight and hurt my ear to the point of swelling, puss and a little blood. e_e Was. Freakin. Gross. I only got my ears pierced a little over three weeks ago and had to take both earrings out four days ago before the six week point. It was painful, but my ear is okay now, I think. Least, the swelling went down.

Does anyone know why I’m so sensitive when it comes to ears? If I touch or mess with my earlobes too long I feel sick (which was why I got help when pulling the embedded earring out). Ugh. I only hope I can put earrings back in tomorrow and that the whole situation won’t happen again. That and I hope they haven’t started closing up. T.T;

I kept pondering over and over whether or not to make DreamerSoul’s new layout a bit lighter. I tried to, but each attempt made me go, “Ugh, no” so it’s staying in its original dark format. *Sweatdrop.*

Anyway, I’m going to be starting to learn Japanese this month! I understand it’s pretty hard but I’m up for the challenge. I figure it won’t be extremely difficult though because I’m interested in the language a lot due to my love of manga and anime. I’ve even been offered some help from a half-Japanese friend overseas in New Zealand, so I’m feeling pretty confident. ^^ That and I wanna be able to read doujinshi over the next few years.

In other news, one of my monthly magazines, Shojo Beat came in the mail at its usual arrival time yesterday. I’ve always been an action junkie, yet have this side of me that enjoys romance, too. Not that I’m really interested in a serious relationship myself, but I enjoy seeing others and find it cute. Anyway, Puffy AmiYumi are on the cover! *Gasp.* They’re so awesome. ^^

Inside there’s this recipe that looks yummy! *Drools.* A chocolate cake with raspberry sauce! (*o*) Click here to see!


That and omigosh does the manga Godchild contain yaoi or shonen-ai? O_o I was reading an article about it and this picture made me have mental nosebleed! 

Does anyone have this game yet? Dance Dance Revolution Super Nova 2. I want a DDR game for myself. (u_u); The only one I have is called Dance Dance Revolution: Mario Remix for Nintendo Gamecube and I’ve heard it’s not hard compared to the original DDR games...

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Yes, that’s right. Nevermind! My friend’s dad fixed my computer up for me… for FREE! *____* Man, you wouldn’t believe how grateful I am to have such good friends! I lol’d when he told me to put all TWELVE GIGABYTES of my stuff onto backup cds. I never realized I had that much junk on this thing… *Sweats.* It has a 178gb hard drive though so I’m not exactly worried about space. Still, I feel the need to back everything up in case I have another computer failure in the future. (Which I hope does NOT ever happen again!) It’s good to have my compy up and working again after barely two days. Now I can get My Sanctuary’s final chapter done for a New Years present to everyone who reads it! ^__^

I’m sorry, everyone. My computer has an error and won’t start up. It goes to some black screen with white writing that says it couldn’t start up successfully over and over and over again no matter what my dad and I have tried. It’s going to be taken to someone to see if they can extract my files off of it, but it’s probably going to be a while. Don’t expect any updates for at least three weeks. *Sighs.* I was so excited that I was almost done with My Sanctuary, in fact, I was 2,200 words into the final chapter... but now this happens and I didn’t have any cds that I could put my files onto for backup. I really need my files back or I’ll lose the will to finish everything. If I had backups, I could easily finish stuff from my mom’s computer that I’m using right now. But I don’t. Again, I am truly sorry. I’m really bugged about the whole thing because I don’t want to lose all my work. Hope it's understandable. Please be patient and I’m sure you can do without me for a little while, anyway. ♥

Huzzah for Nintendo Wii!! I love mine to pieces. It is sooooo much fun! :3 Have you ever played one (or have one)? They’re seriously great! You can get good exercise with them. X3 Kinda like DDR, except mainly for your upper body. You can also connect to the internet with it, so it’s kind of like having a mini computer. If you haven’t tried a Wii yet, you should!

My keychains came in the mail today, my friend gave me a Sora figurine (YesIstillloveKH♥) and I went to the mall with her today to look around. That’s something I barely ever do with a friend. It was fun and we got ice cream. ^^

Also, here’s something odd. I got my ears pierced two days ago. I don’t know about you, but IT HURT SO FREAKIN’ BAD. I’m serious. My ears are extra sensitive, so that’s probably why. And I keep bumping the damn things which are still sore! Oh well. I’ll make do because… after eight weeks, I’ll get to wear earrings like Lavi’s! Huzzah!

That is all… that I remember this late at night. *Huggles Sora.*

I’m soooo proud of myself. ^^ I’m finally going to finish My Sanctuary! I’m writing more of the next chapter after I type this more than likely. I do apologize for not updating Serene Lair, but I’ll probably make a new layout for download if I’m up to it. I want to make one badly. I seriously need to practice with my design skills more. Must get even better! *Waves banner that says “determination”.* I looked at my first designs from the past and went, “Omigosh. I have improved! O.o” It was a shock to me for real, but gave me the boost I needed to keep doing what I love to do!

I’m sorry to whine on the internet, but I just needed to notify everyone of this so you don’t get mad at me if I don't update my websites and such. I’m in a bad situation in real life right now. My mom’s at her last straw with my dad and she seems serious about wanting a divorce. Plus, the majority of my relatives suck in general and some are causing trouble. I won’t get into detail though, just so I don’t bore the crud out of you. Lol. I will still update things if I feel like it, but this was to let you know why I might not. That is all for now.

The doujinshi anthologies I bought on ebay came in the mail today! First thing I woke up to this morning was, “Brittany, look what I got from the mailman.” I got up like a lightening bolt. XD One is by Air and the other is called Lavi en Rose 2! They’re so pretty! *Happy sigh.* I forgot to write about this earlier! It’s past 11pm now on this lovely Friday night. Hahaha.

Tomorrow I’m going to TokyoKid with a few of my friends! I might also buy some anime, manga, or game goodies while I’m there. *Grins.* I wonder if they have any D. Gray-man stuff. Keychains maybe? I want a Lavi one so bad, but all the stores I look at online don’t ship outside of Japan. *Insert sad face here.*

Oh and one final thing that I have to do for the sake of her being the most awesomest person ever... Thank you sm_exery  for giving me Photoshop 7.0! I love you!! Let’s get married and kidnap random boys to do yaoi for us! 8D

 

My Photoshop Elements 3.0 fails for the first time ever since I got it back in 2006. It has a program error and it never has before. FAIL, FAIL, FAAAIL. Therefore, I can’t work on any graphics, digital art, etc. I feel so, so sad right now. ;o;

 …finishing My Sanctuary, my Sephiroth/Cloud FFVII fic. I have another chapter complete and I’m working on the one after that, though I feel the need to perhaps add more to the previous one I haven’t posted yet. I dunno. It’s only 1,924 words right now and to me, that doesn’t seem like enough for a fic that’s ending in about three chapters + an epilogue. Oh and as for Heart Filled Madness, I’m working on that, too. Chapter 7 is in progress with about 839 words so far. I apologize for the wait, but I’ll have them ready this week hopefully. For those of you D. Gray-man fans, when I’m done with My Sanctuary, I’ll be posting the first chapter of a new fic based on that series. I don’t have a title yet and it’s suppose to be a one-shot, but I know me by now. Once I get an idea I really like, I streeeeetch it out.